Talking about my shitty life during my depression

Everybody has those days that you’re laying in bed, and you’re supposed to go somewhere, but you just don’t want too. Some might have it because your bed is so nice and snug, others because it’s too cold outside. When I laid in bed, I didn’t want to get up because I was in pain.

Another secret for my GF.. I need help!

I started this blog because I needed a place for the emotions I couldn’t show in ‘real’ life. I wasn’t happy with myself because there were so many lies. Writing about them makes me feel better. Even though I don’t know any of you, I feel like I’m somewhat becoming a better person.

Most disturbing movie I’ve ever seen: A Serbian Film

I love watching movies, but sometimes I get the feeling that everything is just the same. It’s basically the same story, just with different characters. At that moment I decided to search the web for some ‘disturbing’ movies. I invited my best friend and we started watching ‘A Serbian film’. Sounds harmless right? That’s what I thought…

I cheated on my GF while being on holiday together.

I’m 19 years old, and on a holiday, with my girlfriend (Jessica, the one with the handicap). Well, there were 2 apartments right next to each other, with a big club in the middle. People from both apartments would come there to party. We were both with our parents, and Jessica’s parents choose to spend their holiday there…

Dark music makes me happy.

Every time I hear a dark or ’emo’ song, I can’t help but to feel happy. I can feel the lyrics slip into my bones. It touches me. I can relate to those songs. They describe how I feel at some moments. It’s like they are singing it for me, and everything’s oke.

Her dad died… showtime!

When I think about this story it makes me kinda sick to my stomach, but at the time I felt like it had to be done. While I was looking for my next ‘victim’ I couldn’t help notice the absence of a girl I had my radar on for quite some time now. She wasn’t…

Got away with cheating on GF #1

I was 16 years old and had it all figured out. Just lost my virginity so I felt like a boss. I was playing around with some girls, but it was nothing serious. You had to search hard to find a 15 or 16 year old girl who was ready for sex. At last I…